A letter to Sean

Dear Sean

I'm not saying I've been afraid to write this letter - more surprised that I'm doing it now. Maybe I'm writing it because I want you to know all this stuff but don't want to waste time telling you. And I don't mean waste time in the way you'll think I mean - more that when I'm with you, there's other stuff I want to say - and do. I just don't want to to lose these thoughts so I'm writing it down. When I've finished, I might not even send you it - but keep it locked away somewhere so I know its there. Anyway, I'll get on with it.

The last year has been pretty damn special. We've shared a lot and we've learned a lot - especially about each other - some of these things for my part I somehow expected - the warmth, the mindblowing sex, but others not so much. Let me tell you about a couple of those things.

First up, I didn't expect to smile so goddamn much. I wake up with a dozy grin on my face and it's because I can feel your breath on my neck. When I stand in the shower I smile because I remember something you said or a look on your face when you're eating something you never tasted before. It doesn't matter what you're telling me, just the fact that you are - that we're sharing thoughts and experiences, hurts and laughter.

I didn't expect to want to cry so much. Because you make me feel so much I suppose. Sometimes I cry because everything feels so good...

Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that.

Love you,
Vig